I hear the voices,
The little ones.
Telling me to stop
Leaving your hand behind.
If I'm not happy
Why do I smile?
Your knife
Inside my back hurts..
The blood
Doesn't flow..
Yet I can
See light,
I can't see
You here anymore..
I won't say
These secrets
They've tied me up...
There my own demons,
Your my light..
Dimming slowly
As night grow longer,
Darker...
I can't
Be without you...
I want you close
I'll take care...
Like we promised
I'll see you soon
As the stars fall,
Tonight for our
Wishes..
I held you dear,
As you rejected me
From your heart..
I trusted you
With everything I had..
Every emotion;
We made memories
I've regret making..
Yet my heart is yours..
Why..
I didn't choose you,
I fell so hard..
You see me
As nothing but
Another person..
Built from broken pieces,
You let yourself in
With the door..
I was an open book
Yet not in English;
You'd understand clearly..
You couldn't kiss
Lips which kissed
Razor blades..
My heart is drowning,
Every shed tear
Has dried up already..
I'm loosing sanity,
Ever so slowly..
One.. Two..Three..
Mindlessly a puppet
To this razor,
Blood to ease
The hatred in their voices..
Looking back
I see who I was..
I hate her now,
I hate myself..
Don't leave
Me alone..
Bottles scatter the floor,
My mind long slept
It's all a blur..
I want to feel
A little less numb,
As every shot does
Exactly that..
It hurts
So much to breathe..
To remember,
As I'm sick
Laying around,
I hear your name
Memories cease to exist..
Just for a while,
If only
I never met you,
I wouldn't be
This way..
Why does my heart
Belong to you?..
There's a fine line
You'll never cross,
Yet to save me
You need to pull me
From the other side,
I've lost
Every thing I've
Held in my grasp..
I've loved and lost..
Everyone left
As I placed walls,
No one cared
To break them down..
Inside my heart,
It's slowly
Ceasing to beat..
Thin white lines
Come from red dotted lines
Which metal
Gave me..
I need someone
To save me..
Because you'll never
Understand..
I can't save myself..
I'm too far lost,
The path is gone
I can't understand
Why it's this way..
I Need You, But I'll Be Hurt by FireeHeart, literature
Literature
I Need You, But I'll Be Hurt
Your lies
Just pile up..
One after another,
I smile
As your arm
Fits around me..
We hug
And you can't see,
The tears
Starting to rush
From my dull eyes..
I can't walk away
You're the only one
Keeping me
From heaven..
You push me away
So hard..
Every time I need help,
The rejection
Flows through the blade
That skids around
As I shake
Yet no tears come..
You'll never understand
How much
You've hurt me..
I fall in love
So easily..
I'm tied
Around their fingers,
As they whisper I love you..
My heart beats endlessly,
They claim
They'd always be there..
They wouldn't ever leave..
I was that
One girl
They truly loved..
Yet every time
They left me
In pieces..
Alone with anxiety
Like a noose,
Hanging what was left..
I'm wasting away
Faster than
Someone can find me..
Why do I want
To be loved
So desperately..
It still hurts like hell,
Just to hear your name..
The days drag on
For what seems forever..
I wake up everyday
Into a morning of sorrow,
I'd rather die
Then live like this
Everyday..
To have someone
Steal my heart,
Then leave me alone
With a hole in my chest..
To hear
I'll never leave you
I promise..
It's all lies
I fall for the same
Lies every time..
I feel so stupid
For falling in love
When I know they're lying..
I'm love sick
I need my other half
To fix me..
Is this love?
Or am I just
Unable to be loved..
Since my heart
Was already broken
Time after time..
It's always been you..
You've built me up
From dust,
You built walls
So the demons
Can't grab me
As I slept..
My broken heart
Was sown and stitched
By your words..
It was a blade
You stuck in me
So slowly..
I never felt
The pain..
I never felt
Like that ever before..
I walked down
The streets alone,
My eyes
Are a dull lustre..
My dreams are nightmares..
I truly loved you,
How could you say
I didn't..
As you heard me beg
On my knees
When you walked out
The door..
I hear the voices,
The little ones.
Telling me to stop
Leaving your hand behind.
If I'm not happy
Why do I smile?
Your knife
Inside my back hurts..
The blood
Doesn't flow..
Yet I can
See light,
I can't see
You here anymore..
I won't say
These secrets
They've tied me up...
There my own demons,
Your my light..
Dimming slowly
As night grow longer,
Darker...
I can't
Be without you...
I want you close
I'll take care...
Like we promised
I'll see you soon
As the stars fall,
Tonight for our
Wishes..
I held you dear,
As you rejected me
From your heart..
I trusted you
With everything I had..
Every emotion;
We made memories
I've regret making..
Yet my heart is yours..
Why..
I didn't choose you,
I fell so hard..
You see me
As nothing but
Another person..
Built from broken pieces,
You let yourself in
With the door..
I was an open book
Yet not in English;
You'd understand clearly..
You couldn't kiss
Lips which kissed
Razor blades..
My heart is drowning,
Every shed tear
Has dried up already..
I'm loosing sanity,
Ever so slowly..
One.. Two..Three..
Mindlessly a puppet
To this razor,
Blood to ease
The hatred in their voices..
Looking back
I see who I was..
I hate her now,
I hate myself..
Don't leave
Me alone..
Bottles scatter the floor,
My mind long slept
It's all a blur..
I want to feel
A little less numb,
As every shot does
Exactly that..
It hurts
So much to breathe..
To remember,
As I'm sick
Laying around,
I hear your name
Memories cease to exist..
Just for a while,
If only
I never met you,
I wouldn't be
This way..
Why does my heart
Belong to you?..
There's a fine line
You'll never cross,
Yet to save me
You need to pull me
From the other side,
I've lost
Every thing I've
Held in my grasp..
I've loved and lost..
Everyone left
As I placed walls,
No one cared
To break them down..
Inside my heart,
It's slowly
Ceasing to beat..
Thin white lines
Come from red dotted lines
Which metal
Gave me..
I need someone
To save me..
Because you'll never
Understand..
I can't save myself..
I'm too far lost,
The path is gone
I can't understand
Why it's this way..
I Need You, But I'll Be Hurt by FireeHeart, literature
Literature
I Need You, But I'll Be Hurt
Your lies
Just pile up..
One after another,
I smile
As your arm
Fits around me..
We hug
And you can't see,
The tears
Starting to rush
From my dull eyes..
I can't walk away
You're the only one
Keeping me
From heaven..
You push me away
So hard..
Every time I need help,
The rejection
Flows through the blade
That skids around
As I shake
Yet no tears come..
You'll never understand
How much
You've hurt me..
I fall in love
So easily..
I'm tied
Around their fingers,
As they whisper I love you..
My heart beats endlessly,
They claim
They'd always be there..
They wouldn't ever leave..
I was that
One girl
They truly loved..
Yet every time
They left me
In pieces..
Alone with anxiety
Like a noose,
Hanging what was left..
I'm wasting away
Faster than
Someone can find me..
Why do I want
To be loved
So desperately..
It still hurts like hell,
Just to hear your name..
The days drag on
For what seems forever..
I wake up everyday
Into a morning of sorrow,
I'd rather die
Then live like this
Everyday..
To have someone
Steal my heart,
Then leave me alone
With a hole in my chest..
To hear
I'll never leave you
I promise..
It's all lies
I fall for the same
Lies every time..
I feel so stupid
For falling in love
When I know they're lying..
I'm love sick
I need my other half
To fix me..
Is this love?
Or am I just
Unable to be loved..
Since my heart
Was already broken
Time after time..
It's always been you..
You've built me up
From dust,
You built walls
So the demons
Can't grab me
As I slept..
My broken heart
Was sown and stitched
By your words..
It was a blade
You stuck in me
So slowly..
I never felt
The pain..
I never felt
Like that ever before..
I walked down
The streets alone,
My eyes
Are a dull lustre..
My dreams are nightmares..
I truly loved you,
How could you say
I didn't..
As you heard me beg
On my knees
When you walked out
The door..
I see the sun set,
I see the sun rise,
And it has not yet,
Outshone my love's eyes.
At night, I hear the coyotes.
Before dawn, the call for prayer.
All of these profound memories
With you, I cannot wait to share.
I walk for miles across the hot desert sand,
Trekking with a rifle through a dry and weary land.
Why must my path be here, in a wilderness so bland.
I long to be in the woods, among the trees to stand.
I have not seen a cloud since my journey was begun.
All I have to comfort me is the unforgiving sun.